anthimeria: unicorn rampant, first line of Kipling's "The Thousandth Man" (The Novel)
Three rejection letters in the last three days, two of them today.

All form rejections, one very abrupt, one slightly condescending.

I feel like I got the breath knocked out of me.

I'll get up again, but I need a minute to lie down here and breathe.
anthimeria: Astro City superheroine Flying Fox (Flying Fox)
Sent another bunch of queries off en masse in the last few days.  It's still nerve-wracking!  This lot has a longer response time on average than the last bunch, but that doesn't make me any less twitchy, somehow.  It's a logic-versus-emotion thing: I have done the scary thing, now I expect a response . . . or possibly desire a response . . . as fast as possible.  All those NRMN rejections can be hard to take for someone used to always getting a reply, even if it's just a form letter.  "We'll get back to you if we want you" is so ambiguous . . . mind you, I understand why--agents are crazy-swamped--but it's still, well, nerve-wracking from the other end!

I simultaneously feel like it's been a month since Nova Albion and like barely any time has passed.  I've been working a lot, both at the paying job and the business end of writing.  I've about come to the end of my latest list of agents for Skywatch and will need to do more research there, plus I'd like to start querying The Novel but the materials aren't as ready as I'd like.

So: lots of work down, lots more to go.  For all that I know my workload will increase (possibly exponentially) when I get a novel picked up, I can't wait, because at least then it'll be work with a visible effect.  Right now it's all front loading, working and working and working in the hopes of paying off down the line.

I think I can I think I can I think I can . . .
anthimeria: Gears, some magnified (Gears)
Final day of Nova Albion=as awesome or awesomer than the first two days!  (It's been a long day, okay?  Critique my grammar when I'm getting paid for it.)

The last day of a convention is always my BUY SHINY THINGS day, both because I will have had adequate time to peruse the vendor tables and because I'll have a good guess of what the con is costing me (there are always last-minute costs--or sometimes, surprising savings) and thus whether the money I have set aside is too much or, rarely, if I have more than budgeted.  I probably circuited the vendor halls two or three times before making any purchases; a few vendors to whom I returned several times obviously recognized me and my very fine hat.  Generally I try to buy from those vendors whom I've returned to again and again--both because hey, I've been ogling their wears and not purchasing!, and also because it's usually a good indication that I really do want whatever I've been eying, and will not regret the price tag.

So, morning vendor hall circuit and first purchase of the day, then three panels, including a fun writing-and-publishing-steampunk panel that nicely got down the business brass tacks and in which Gail Carriger (in her, I believe, third steampunk outfit of the weekend) kinda-accidently took over mod duties.  Notes and other fun-for-writer-me things resulted!

Then the panels I was interested in ended, and I was faced with decision time: last round through the vendor halls.  I made a pass through one and rejected two things I thought I wanted and ended up with another I didn't know I wanted.  At the last vendor hall, I got to chatting with a vendor from whom I bought new decorations for my hat (it is not finished yet; there is not enough stuff on it) and a fellow congoer at her booth.

Said fellow congoer was enthusiastic about my hat and my outfit.  We were chatting and discussing maker stuff and buying things at cons and I mentioned that I longed for a particular unique costume piece, but needed to save up because I work retail and costuming is not cheap.  He sympathized, having just made a large costuming purchase himself, and then proceeded to whisk me off to the proper booth and finance my purchase, including customization, of said costume piece.


I was stuttery and flabbergasted and probably red the whole time.  Said piece was not terribly expensive, as costuming goes, but well beyond my budget.  He was blithe and kind and very much a people person; upon hearing I was at the con alone, grabbed the next passing person he knew and introduced us, with a remarkable lack of awkwardness.  They in turn convinced me to go to Maker Faire, which is in ~two weeks, and which I've never attended.  We exchanged e-mail addresses, he asked after my DSF story, and with, again, a remarkable lack of awkwardness of any kind, finished the transaction and left to join his friends.

. . . I'm still in shock, a bit.

It's definintely proof than humans can't be taken in generalizations; we exist in all parts of whatever spectrum you can come up with, and probably off it, also.  For no reason at all beyond a passing acquaintance, he gave me a wonderful gift.

Not just the costume piece (though OMG), but a great story and a reminder to always pay forward that which we can't pay back.  I can't repay the experience.  One day, I trust, the universe will drop a similar situation in my lap, and I'll get to pay it forward.

Cons, for all their potential faults, have as many or more potential rewards.  They are remarkable in that they create an instant community, with incredibly strong bonds given the incredibly limited time, and at the best cons, people in that community take care of each other.

For every time I've gotten side-eyed as a girl/feminist/queer, for every guy who makes suggestive comments about women's costumes, for every panel that gets derailed, there are fellow activists, there are men who shoot those comments down, there are panels that do meaningful work and reach new conclusions and new people.

And apparently there are fairy godpeople out there, too, for the fan who dares to voice a wish.

Glasses raised to Maker Faire, WisCon, and the hope of a Nova Albion 2014.

PS: If you see this (you know who you are), thank you.

anthimeria: Stars in space (Starscape)
Back from Day Two!  Had a quick swing around the vendor halls, with ALL THE SHINY.

Since the Actual Costume I want to make eventually (as opposed to stuff I already own compiled in a steampunky way) is a Skywatch Warden's costume, most of which I will have to make myself to get it to look right, there is a limited amount I can buy.  But accessories are one of those things, and if I can find The Perfect goggles and/or pocket watch, then THEY WILL BE MINE.  But because of the character-costume aspect, they have to be perfect--heck, even if it weren't, I'm making a costume in a maker's genre, I want it to be right.  So if I can find those things, YAY!  If not, I attended a panel that was basically a list of all the places in the area to get good cheap stuff with which to make steampunky things.

Hmm.  While I can probably make goggles, a pocket watch may be beyond me.  I shall have to consider that . . .

On to sleep and Sunday.

(PS, if anyone wants me to post the List of Places to Find Stuff, let me know!)
anthimeria: Gears, some magnified (Gears)
On this, the first day of Nova Albion, I have learned that I can only recognize Gail Carriger when she's in full steampunk getup.

I might've been working Reg when she came to get her minions' badges and didn't recognize her AT ALL, but when I saw her at the ball later, I was like, "Wait, that's . . . OH."  Fortunately I was laminating things and did not make a fool of myself.

Costume tomorrow!  I only have two steampunk-y costumes, so today I wore my Wicked Girls shirt and usual geeky earrings.

Also haven't been to the vendor halls yet (yes, halls, plural--steampunk is a maker's genre, people!) because I was either at Reg or getting food, so I am looking forward to that.  I have heard many good things.

Now for sleep.
anthimeria: Woman drawing a sword, the words "Sword and Sorceress XXV" (SS XXV)
"The Girl She Truly Was" will be distributed via e-mail by Daily Science Fiction on May 30th, and will be available for free on the DSF website one week later, on June 6th!

I am very very excited, y'all!  Second story, about to be published.  Plus, it'll get put up just after WisCon (just before would be better, but this'll do!). 

Also I am poking about on the writer's friending meme on Three Weeks for Dreamwidth, which is interesting.

Two Things

May. 15th, 2011 11:38 am
anthimeria: Gears, some magnified (Gears)
One: for FEED fans, Alpha-RC007 encounters Marburg Amberlee in Countdown!  When will you Rise?

Two: Working on Skywatch again, for it has been returned to me with many useful edits, and the werewolf book is stubborn.  I'm not actually having trouble writing it in the sit-and-stare-at-the-screen-for-hours sense, which is what happened with Skywatch, I just can't seem to get a hold of my main character's voice (as this is the only novel I've ever attempted to write in first person, that is kind of important).  So I'm going to leave my wolves alone a little longer and refocus on the City in the Sky.

Wish me luck!  It appears I have new scenes to write and new-ish scenes to delete, along with the constant destruction of typos.


May. 11th, 2011 10:37 pm
anthimeria: Mask of feathers (Feather Face)
So, if I haven't made it clear on this blog, I have been pretty much obsessed with the book FEED, by Mira Grant (aka Seanan McGuire) since I read it last summer.  The sequel, DEADLINE, is coming out on May 31, and until that day, she's posting a snippit a day from the Newsflesh universe pre-Rising on her livejournal.

These snippits will make the most sense if you've read FEED (which, if you haven't, SHAME!  Go!), but you could probably read them without having read the book.  They've been the highlight of my days since she started posting them, so I thought I'd rec and link.

T-minus 29 days to DEADLINE

It's almost the summer of 2014.  When will you Rise?

anthimeria: Open book, says "sometimes you reach what's realest by making believe" (Books)
Tonight I ventured forth from the apartment (where I have begun the werewolf book!  I will tell you all about it later, probably ad nauseum) and saw Neal Schusterman, writer of speculative YA novels, at a reading/signing for his new book Everfound (third in the Skinjackers series).

I have to admit that I've only read one of Schusterman's books, and it was a while ago.  But he is the favorite author of someone I know and love, so off I went to the reading and to pick up a signed book for a present.

There weren't too many of us there, which was baffling in some ways (Neal Schusterman!) and nice in others (I met and talked with people, including someone who has a local children's book event e-mail list, which I promptly signed up for).  The reading was fantastic.  He read a few scenes from the Skinjackers books, told good stories about where the ideas for those and some of his other books came from, and talked a little bit about his philosophy behind what he writes and why he writes it.  Schusterman is a good reader and a solid storyteller, in print and in person.

I had a good time, and one of the scenes he read made me cry (for those of you who've read Everlost--the first book--it's the scene that introduces the towers.  Oh, man, did that hurt), and all in all it was a pleasant evening.

The person I'm giving the book to isn't in the same state, so sadly I won't get to see his expression when he opens up the surprise package, but I can imagine it and it is sweet.

anthimeria: Comic book panels (Sequential Art)
There may be things happening with the job I want!  Thus, haven't been around much.  Wish me luck!

Re: this post's subject--I haven't talked about it much on this journal because it's mostly been about my writing in the last year, which has mostly been my novels, with a few side-steps into short stories.  The thing is, I am into just about every medium (except poetry . . . except I like epic poetry and iambic pentameter, so whatever).

I love comics and tv and movies and musicals and plays, although I've found theatre isn't my strong suit.  I write everything, depending on the medium the story wants to be in.  Sometimes, I've had stories not work until I switched media (I once wrote a short story that sucked until I turned it into the script for a short comic, which was subsequently published in one of Knox's lit mags, Catch--the college's longest-running lit mag, which has won awards, though I'm biased toward the Quiver collection of online genre mags--I did co-found them, I'm allowed to play favorites.  Anyway.  Tangent, wow).  I miss writing scripts, even though I had sound reasons for focusing on my novels for the last year.

Me and Comics )

The reason I'm waxing poetic about comic books today is because I pulled my whole collection out of its boxes this evening in an attempt to bring it under some kind of order.

Organizing comic books is not, actually, easy. )

As a result (and the actual point of this whole rambling mess), I am sitting in a room with comics all over the floor.  They're in neat stacks, organized by publisher-title-chronology, but still.

I feel a bit like I've let the stories out of their boxes, for a little while.  Astro City and Young Justice, Static and Excalibur, A Distant Soil and Elfquest--superheroes, wolfriders, aliens and psychics.  These are the words and images that have spoken to me, and it's good for me to see and remember them.  Sometimes I forget.

They renew my sense of wonder.

anthimeria: Astro City superheroine Flying Fox (Flying Fox)
Day two was just as awesome as day one (and I am just as tired at the end of it)!

Too many wonderful panels at the same time--this morning I wanted to go to Race Basics, Craft of Writing YA, and The Politics of Steampunk, which were all at ten o'clock.  I ended up doing a lot of panel-hopping, starting in one panel and going to another because I couldn't bear to miss it.

This day at WisCon )

Tomorrow I am hauling myself out of bed quite early to attend an 8:30 panel, so I'm going to sleep.  WisCon continues to be one of my favorite cons ever!

ETA: [personal profile] starlady has posted notes on the Politics of Steampunk panel!

anthimeria: Comic book panels (Sequential Art)

There's panels about interesting, complicated topics with great discussion and audience participation!  You can walk up to anyone in a badge and start a conversation!  Everyone's friendly and enthusiastic!  We're leaning really, really far to the left and talking about it!  There are panels on everything from Intersectionality in Fandom to Chicks Dig Doctor Who to the Craft of YA Writing to so much more!

And I feel safe at this con.  I've been to a lot of comic cons where my friends and I will be digging through the back issues, and every time some guy--sometimes the guy running the booth!--will comment on the fact that we're girls.  Ooh, girls at a comic con, what will they do?  (I think WisCon's attitude toward oppression in sf/f is rubbing off.  I am okay with this!)  That doesn't happen here.

In equally exciting news, I am meeting lots of fellow spec-fic writers of all stripes!  The workshop went really well this morning, and I met and mingled not just with my group but my friend's, and also the friends of the people in both groups, so as of now I know seven new spec-fic writers well enough to go out for food with them.  And tomorrow at lunch is the Journeyman Writer's meeting, for people with at least one SFWA-qualifying sale, and thanks to S&S, I can go to that!  So I will get to know more aspiring writers!

Friday programming that I did! )

Tomorrow I get to sleep in till 8am!  Then I will lather/rinse/repeat today, hopefully with meeting even more cool people, fellow writers, and awesome audiences.  I need sleep, so I am going to quit rambling and go do that!

anthimeria: Mask of feathers (Feather Face)
Seeing as mine is a writer's journal and I've never actually posted any of my stories (publishers frown on that; they don't want to pay for work people can already read for free), I thought I'd post something I'm never going to submit in honor of [community profile] three_weeks_for_dw  (and to prove that I'm not making up all the writing I yap about!).

The first bit is the beginning of a Letter Game I started with a friend of mine who studied abroad in '08--we never finished the game (I hear that's how most Letter Games go), but we did send the first few letters.

My character began the game, and this was her first letter )

Secondly, I'm a terrific hoarder of story ideas, and also believe that no two people will ever write the same story from the same inspiration.  So, below are a few choice samples from my Story Ideas file--check them out for inspiration or just a peek inside my head.

Free to a loving home )

anthimeria: Comic book panels (Sequential Art)
With [community profile] three_weeks_for_dw  going on, I figured that since all the content of this blog is already solely posted to Dreamwidth, I should write about why I chose dreamwidth to put my blog on in the first place.  It could be seen as a weird choice for a budding writer who wants to get her name out there.

I chose Dreamwidth because I believe in Dreamwidth's mission, as simple (and as complicated!) as that.  I believe in free speech, in open source, in fandom, and in people working together as a community.

Censorship is one of the world's evils.  It's a subtle, nasty chipping away at those rights and freedoms I am unwilling to surrender for temporary safety.  We say, oh, we should censor/ban Mein Kamf, or books written by the Klu Klux Klan, or explicit pornographic material.  And I say, and once you've done that, what next?  Anything German, anything southern, anything sexual?

This does not mean that I agree with Hitler, white power, or think explicit works should be without warning.  I am saying that those works must be allowed to exist and be available.  And that they should exist and be available alongside works like The Diary of Anne Frank, Sister Outsider and Gender Outlaw.  Whether or not one reads them--and what one takes away from reading them--is up to the reader and, I hope, their teachers/professors/parents/family/friends.

As for fandom, I believe that given how much media influences our lives, we can't afford not to engage with it in all its forms.  Media of all kinds is a big influence on my life, as a person and as a writer, and it's always exciting when someone tells a good story well, no matter if it's a movie, a book, a play, or a fanfic.  I've also never agreed with the idea that fanfiction somehow stains its source material.  Fanfic has only ever been a good thing in my life.  There are a number of tv shows I would never have watched, comics I'd never have read, and movies I'd never have seen if not for fandom.  Since I tend to buy what I like, eliminating fandom would also eliminate the money I spend on those works.

I am not necessarily what one would consider an activist.  I don't attend rallies or write a political blog.  However, I do believe that politics are personal, and in my writing and in my life I try to make those little choices that reflect who I am and what I stand for.  So my blog is on Dreamwidth, I write women, disabled characters, characters of color and LGBT characters in my speculative fiction, and I speak up when hatespeak comes up in conversation.

That's why I'm on Dreamwidth.


anthimeria: unicorn rampant, first line of Kipling's "The Thousandth Man" (Default)
Lauren K. Moody

Positive Obsession

There is hope in error, but none at all in perfection.
--Ursula K. Le Guin

The universe is made up of stories, not atoms.
--Muriel Rukeyser

Our lives begin to end the day we become silent about things that matter.
--Dr. Martin Luther King, Jr


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