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Jul. 22nd, 2014 07:18 am
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Last night was the first night I spent without company in the new place. It was...strange.

I grew up relatively poor, and I'm not exactly wealthy now, but I can afford a standard of living that I haven't had in a long time, in terms of the size and quality of my home. This apartment is so nice and in such a good place and has so many cool little features that it makes me really nervous. I'm afraid that there's some hidden flaw in the place, or (realistically; it's at the upper end of my rent window) that I won't be able to afford it long term, that I'll be fired and won't be able to afford it at all (unrealistic; I'm good at my job, I haven't done anything to deserve it) or that something terrible will happen as a sort of supernatural retribution. I suspect some of this has to do with undergoing a major personal upheaval in my family when I was eleven -- going from safety to instability in more or less a heartbeat -- but some of it is brain chemistry.

It's terrible to live with mental illness sometimes, of course, but for me some of the terrible is the amount of superstition that goes into my life. If I do X or Y, I'll get result Z, at least I believe, even if X and Y AND Z are unrelated. When you live like that, if something goes wrong, even if it realistically wasn't in your control, it still feels as though it's your fault. I try to break as much of the habit as I can, but I still free-floating worry that because I feel secure and stable (and because I talk about it) something awful is about to happen to make up for it.

I spent a significant portion of yesterday afternoon reading Crowded House, one of the Top 25 New Yorker Free Articles from Longform.org. It's about a disastrous attempt by a hundred different people to sublet one apartment from a scam artist, and what they went through trying to get their money back. Then I had to stop, because I was working myself up into some kind of state.

Everything will be fine. The appliances work, the apartment is price-appropriate, and if something breaks I'm capable of fixing it (I've already fixed the showerhead). I have earned what I have, and while luck may have helped, I put in the work so that it could. I'm just going to keep telling myself that until I believe it.

Update from the Concom

Jul. 21st, 2014 08:02 pm
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Over the weekend, the WisCon Concom has spent much time reading and discussing the responses to the Friday announcement of the subcommittee's decision on Jim Frenkel. We heartily thank the community for all of your insightful commentary and critique. We are grateful to you for holding us accountable to our feminist principles.

Currently, the concom is looking at all aspects of this process and decision. You have brought us your questions; we have questions of our own. We are actively working on answers to them. Answers may not come immediately, but we will keep you updated. If possible, we'll post again before the end of the week with information about where our discussion is taking us.

We apologize again to Elise and Lauren. Not only were you hurt by harassment at WisCon, but you have been hurt again and again by this process over the past year. We are deeply sorry for our repeated failures.

We apologize to Mikki Kendall, whose information on a previous incident was not made properly significant in the process.

We apologize to the WisCon community. You have been hurt by this process as well and left feeling unsafe at WisCon. Thank you for your anger and criticism -- it's informing our discussion and moving us forward.

Moving WisCon forward from these repeated failures is hard work. We on the concom are willing and determined to be engaged in this, although as individuals engaged in such hard work it can prove extremely difficult to not add to the ongoing harm. We apologize for our part in causing harm, and thank you for patience that is not always so well deserved.

The concom continues to invite and value your feedback. Comments made on this post (as well as tweets made using either @WisCon39 or #WisCon) will be sent to the entire concom.
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I originally posted this as a reply to Antarcticlust's previous post. Since it was buried 150+ commments in, I'm reposting it on my personal journals:



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Jul. 21st, 2014 02:44 pm
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 I have just posted an apology to Elise Matthesen, Lauren Jankowski, and the broader Wiscon community. You can read it here.

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Jul. 21st, 2014 08:04 am
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Good morning everyone, and welcome to Radio Free Monday!

I had a few submissions this week that didn't seem urgent but did require some research, so I left them out because time was a little limited during the move. Never fear, I have them marked for next week!

Ways To Give:

[livejournal.com profile] nancylebov linked to a fundraiser for medical bills and expenses for Wendi, a friend whose cancer was in remission and came back; she has very little savings because it was spent beating the cancer the first time around. You can read more and donate here.

[tumblr.com profile] treesahquiche's friend Matt Grote, [tumblr.com profile] loserbeam, is offering comedic writing pieces to raise money for housing and living expenses at grad school until his scholarship money arrives in late September. You can read more, commission, or donate here.

[tumblr.com profile] historytravellers (aka [livejournal.com profile] bittervillager) is seeking assistance in paying for her final college credit hour. Her university requires she stay enrolled while writing her dissertation on history and temporal tourism, and if her credit hour is not paid for by 15 August, she will be unenrolled from her research hours course. You can read more and donate here.

[personal profile] waldo is raising funds through donorschoose to get more iPads for her inner-city 5th graders; the new standardized tests are all-computer and they need the practice. You can read more and donate here.

Help For Free:

[personal profile] aunty_marion is asking for good wishes and healing thoughts for her mother, who is in the hospital with several ailments that make it unlikely she'll be able to come home again. They'd like to take her out for her 90th birthday in August, and while they don't think it'll happen, they'd love people to keep her mother in their thoughts. You can read more in the last few entries of her Dreamwidth account.

And this has been Radio Free Monday! Thank you for your time. You can post items for my attention at the Radio Free Monday submissions form or via email at copperbadge at gmail dot com. If you're not sure how to proceed, here is a little more about what I do and how you can help (or ask for help!).


Jul. 20th, 2014 08:40 pm
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Yesterday was really lovely and I did shopping and laundry and learned how to make eggplant parmesan and it actually turned out pretty tasty and I bought stuff to try a couple more good recipes and I played with the birds that I am babysitting for Nick & Ginger & watched season 1 of In the Flesh and was feeling good about things.

Today I have sort of been reduced to staring straight ahead and not remembering how to put words together and playing a monthly game of "Is this depression or PMS or straight up laziness" and reminding myself that if my friends judged me on my ability to get things done when I said I would get them done I would have already lost all of my friends. So.

A meme:

Ask me a question about one of my fics or series. It can be absolutely anything in any project and I will tell you the honest-to-goodness answer. Don’t hold back. Whatever you ask, I’ll answer as truthfully and as completely as possible. You can also ask about my writing as a whole, if you like.

That is if there's anybody hanging out in journalspace who remembers when I used to write stuff enough to have something to ask me? Stories are here anyway.

If that meme is too complicated then ... tell me what I should learn to cook next or tell me something you associate with me or what you did this weekend or validate my existence in some way, I'm not really picky right now.

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Jul. 20th, 2014 01:17 pm
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I have just posted a public statement regarding my participation on the ConCom in general and the Harassment Policy Committee and Frenkel Subcommittees in particular. You may read it here
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It weirds me out when media doing fine arts heist plots show real famous paintings in their various fictional private collections - I always have a moment of "that belongs in a museum!" and then am driven to go and check where the pieces actually are, to affirm that they remain visible to the public. I'm watching Leverage, and the first season finale two-parter just showed Vermeer's Girl With A Pearl Earring in the baddie's locked-down private gallery, when it's been in the Hague for more than a century - I know, because I checked.

It's like these shows take place in some horrible alternate universe where art is totally non-democratized. Vermeer in private collections, and - what was it, Picasso? Monet? - lost on James Cameron's Titanic.

(Am enjoying Leverage, but I wish it would play a bit harder. Watched Hannibal over the last few weeks, and wow it plays so hard. Whither happy mediums?)

request for clarification re Frenkel

Jul. 19th, 2014 09:37 am
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In the discussion of the decision about Jim Frenkel, a lot of people are interpreting this as "he is definitely banned for 2015, after that we'll see, and he can come back in 2019 unless something else happens." At least one person I know is interpreting it as "he is definitely banned until 2018, and then we'll decide whether he can come back in 2019 or later."

Separately from what would constitute good evidence: if nothing changes, and you don't hear from Jim Frenkel in any way, shape, or form between now and April 2016, would he be allowed to attend Wiscon in May 2016?

If he presented no evidence in his favor, and nobody else presented any further evidence against him, would he be welcome at the end of those four years?

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Jul. 19th, 2014 10:39 am
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 I am still alive!

The move went smoothly -- no injuries, for sure, which is nice -- and today we've been unpacking and making a list of what I need to buy or repair. There are always one or two things that the landlord overlooked since the last tenant moved out -- in this case, a few burnt out lightbulbs, a dusty intake vent, and a Mysterious Humidity about the dryer. (I think the rear vent probably just isn't sealed properly.)

I'm nursing a bit of a headache so the motto of the day is "slow and steady" or as mum put it, "hourly sit-down breaks". She says she saw the ghost this morning in the mirror, so maybe I'm not 100% bonkers. Then again, this is the woman who raised me. 

She brought me an Aloe Vera plant as a housewarming gift. I said I was naming it Ragtime.

"Ragtime?" she asked.

"Yeah," I said. "Aloe, my ragtime gal."

Fortunately, mum likes puns as much as I do, so she was laughing too hard to throw anything at me. 

I have been running the washing machine and dishwasher all morning; I think everything in my apartment is nearly clean. This afternoon we're doing a Bed Bath & Beyond run to buy various home goods (Bed, Bath) and maybe a little something for the ghost (Beyond). And then a sushi-and-robata place for dinner because I want some salmon nigiri and Mum likes things on sticks.
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The WisCon committee has completed our harassment review process with regard to Jim Frenkel, who engaged in two reported violations of WisCon's general and harassment policies at WisCon 37, in 2013. A subcommittee of WisCon's Harassment Policy Committee has reviewed the reports, and all communications with WisCon regarding these incidents, as well as a direct response solicited from Jim Frenkel by the subcommittee. The incoming chair of WisCon 39 has communicated the subcommittee's determination to Jim Frenkel.

The WisCon committee announces the following actions:

WisCon will (provisionally) not allow Jim Frenkel to return for a period of four years (until after WisCon 42 in 2018). This is "provisional" because if Jim Frenkel chooses to present substantive, grounded evidence of behavioral and attitude improvement between the end of WisCon 39 in 2015 and the end of the four-year provisional period, WisCon will entertain that evidence. We will also take into account any reports of continued problematic behavior.

Allowing Jim Frenkel to return is not guaranteed at any time, including following WisCon 42; the convention's decision will always be dependent on compelling evidence of behavioral change, and our commitment to the safety of our members. If he is permitted to return at any time, there will be an additional one-year ban on appearing on programming or volunteering in public spaces. Any consideration of allowing him to return will be publicized in WisCon publications and social media at least three months before a final decision is made.

Based on the policies adopted by WisCon's Harassment Policy Committee before WisCon 38 in 2014, Jim Frenkel has the right to appeal this decision to SF3, WisCon's governing body. If he enters an appeal, we will make public statements both when he does so and when the appeal ruling is issued.

These are official WisCon actions, and will not be affected by future philosophical or policy discussions.

The subcommittee would like the WisCon community to know that we have been constrained both in what we can do and how we can explain it by matters of confidentiality on all sides. We believe the whole question of confidentiality in harassment complaints--who it benefits, who it protects, and who it constrains--is a matter for deep community discussion. As we continue this broader conversation in the coming months, we look forward to your involvement.

We have decided to sign our names to this decision as an act of transparency and an acknowledgment of WisCon's previous failures in this regard, although it is WisCon's policy that harassment incident subcommittees be anonymous. Our choice is specifically not intended to bind or influence any future harassment subcommittees.

We apologize again to Elise Matthesen, to Lauren Jankowski, and to our membership for WisCon's substantial failures in following up on their reports and completing this process.

Please direct any questions and comments to the member advocate, Debbie Notkin, at memberadvocate@wiscon.info.

Debbie Notkin, chair
Ariel Franklin-Hudson
Jacquelyn Gill
Jim Hudson
Jackie Lee

Costume planning

Jul. 17th, 2014 02:44 pm
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So, Ben and I are planning to do drive suits for the Kaidonovskys for DragonCon.

DragonCon is in 42 days. Neither of us has ever built armor before. We've looked at a few tutorials online and talked to a local guy (who is sweet but kinda flaky) who has a lot of experience with it. He's supposed to help us out, but god knows.

Here's what we need to do (in approximate timeline order):

- acquire (more?) blue masking tape and possibly more duct tape.
- draft all (remaining) pattern pieces (8-10 hours, July 19-20)
- figure out what we're going to use for the suits they wear under the armor (underarmour or other sport leggings/tops? look for Russian surplus at Sid's?) (by July 26)
- order Ben's wig and restyle mine; style Ben's wig when it arrives (find card with which wig to order written on it; it's on my desk)
- get hardware (1/8" jacks, bolts, etc) from Radio Shack and/or Home Depot (July 26-27)
- get a dremel and a good box fan, oh and probably a workbench would be useful
- get contact cement & paint & Bondo
- cut, glue, mold, & paint foam (August 1-23, at least 60 hours; this will probably involve some weeknight work.)

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Jul. 16th, 2014 08:02 am
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Ugh you guys, having no internet at home is the worst. But I am being very productive!

FOR EXAMPLE, have some fanfic for a television drama that you may never have heard of. :D

Title: The Season Of Singing
Rating: PG-13
Fandom: Kings
Summary: David desperately wants to be Jack's friend and ally. Jack doesn't know what he wants. There's probably a preordained plan for both of them, but they're going to have to work out the details on their own.
Notes: Written for Arsenic's birthday, because both of us were annoyed that Jack and David weren't friends in the show.

Here at AO3 | Here at Dreamwidth

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Jul. 14th, 2014 07:45 am
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Good morning everyone, and welcome to Radio Free Monday!

Ways To Give:

[personal profile] ragingrainbow is a single mother with financial difficulties due to an undiagnosed chronic illness. She is working to stave off eviction, and is raising money to pay bills and keep food on the table. You can read more and donate here.

[tumblr.com profile] iamshadow21 linked to [tumblr.com profile] vyllalala, who has had an emergency hospital stay for gallstones (oh, the pain D:) and is doing art commissions to cover expenses. You can read more about how to commission and donate here.

[personal profile] mathsnerd is moving house to a wheelchair-friendly flat and has found she has to raise just over 4700 Euros as quickly as possible in order to secure the flat (there's a Fixtures & Fittings fee). She draws disability pension, which means she's not making very much, but she has charities offering to help as long as she demonstrates she has a plan to get the money together. You can read more here and support the fundraiser here.

Gabrielle, a disabled, neuroatypical student, has been offered a spectacular opportunity: tuition and housing at Smith College, but the scholarship does not cover healthcare, travel, textbooks, and other incidentals. This opportunity is an escape from an abusive home for her, and she's raising funds to cover the rest of her expenses. You can read more and donate at her gofundme here.

[livejournal.com profile] digitalwave has been offered housing for their first vacation in many years, but they don't quite have the budget for transit and food while on vacation. They need to raise some money for the trip, and are selling DVDs, purses, body lotions, geeky books, and other fannish miscellaney here.

[livejournal.com profile] frenchroast linked to a fundraiser for the daughter of [livejournal.com profile] smwright. Ms. Armentrout is starting her first year of teaching in a high-poverty, high-needs school, and is trying to buy supplies for her classroom, including things like a rug for the classroom and literacy materials that will benefit the school for years to come. You can read more and donate here.

[tumblr.com profile] pondamypond is raising money to get her car permit and license, which will aid her in getting a job to pay for school and get out of her parents' place. You can read more here and support the fundraiser here.

In A Bind is a not-for-profit project which works to provide chest binders for female-to-male transgender youth and genderqueer youth, who often have difficulty getting access to chest binders. They have had to close their waiting list due to backlog, and are fundraising in cooperation with the Frank Cassata Family Foundation to raise $3K for binder purchases. You can read more and find out where to donate here.

[personal profile] tealin linked to a fundraiser for Simon's Cat, a popular web series that is working on a color episode and would like to pay the artists helping them to produce it. There are fun perks, and as Tealin says, "the satisfaction of helping to circumvent the studio system" :D You can read more and support the project here.

Help For Free:

[tumblr.com profile] spiredog is conducting a study for her senior thesis on whether elements of teh subculture of fandom are becoming a part of mainstream culture. You can read more here, and if you want to help, share the link at the post with family and friends (over the age of 18) who do not consider themselves a part of fandom.

Buy Stuff, Help Out:

[livejournal.com profile] talekyn linked to The Many Tortures of Anthony cardno, a short story anthology raising money for the American Cancer Society. The anthology has 22 authors across multiple genres, and you can find it here on Amazon; I'm told it will be available at Barnes & Noble and on Kindle soon.

[tumblr.com profile] pretensesoup has a novella out, "About love, death, ghosts, physics, and Chinese philosophy". You can check out her website here which includes information about her novella The Joy Of Fishes here.

Robyn just started a website to sell jewelry that she makes. You can check out the site here; she'd love some word of mouth publicity.


[personal profile] kinetikatrue and the People's Republic Of Fandom are still looking for a fourth housemate to share a four bedroom house in Takoma Park full of "introverted queerish nerds". You can read more about the home and its occupants and get in touch here.

News to Know:

[tumblr.com profile] illustratedjai runs LGBTQ&A, a youtube channel aimed at answering questions about LGBTQ+ issues, vocabulary, and identity. You can check out the channel here, and support it via patreon here.

[livejournal.com profile] rosefyre let me know that the old tardisbigbang.com site has apparently vanished. If you're looking for the tardisbigbang fics you can usually find them via archive.org, but if it was the only place your fic was archived, you might consider reposting it somewhere so people can still enjoy it!

And this has been Radio Free Monday! Thank you for your time. You can post items for my attention at the Radio Free Monday submissions form or via email at copperbadge at gmail dot com. If you're not sure how to proceed, here is a little more about what I do and how you can help (or ask for help!).

Dreamwidth news: 14 July 2014

Jul. 14th, 2014 08:25 am
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Hello, Dreamwidth! I come with the assistance of our kitten, who likes to help with technical matters, to bring you a quick round of Dreamwidth news.

This is a short update, because I'm sneaking it in under the wire before elbow surgery (which is scheduled for 24 hours or so from now, eep), so I may not be able to respond to all comments and I definitely won't be able to respond past tomorrow -- prognosis is anywhere from 4 to 8 weeks before I'll be typing regularly again, and dictation software doesn't work for me.

Behind the cut:

* Development
* Responsive design: styles changes
* Date/time check removed when posting
* Bugfix for comment import problems
* Mail sending problems
* Tales from the Conference

A reminder: Whenever a news post is posted, all notifications are delayed for a little while as the mail system sends out notifications of the announcement. Comment notifications may be delayed for up to an hour or two. This was posted slightly before 0830 EST (see in your time zone). Please don't worry about missing notifications until at least 1030 EST.

Dreamwidth news, 14 July 2014 )

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Jul. 14th, 2014 12:23 am
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Code push is complete and we're monitoring for any issues. If you spot something that looks off, let us know! The changes covered in this push are in this code tour.

(The site may be a bit sluggish for the next 20 minutes or so while the caches warm back up -- you don't have to tell us about that!)

Notification delays:

An update was posted to [site community profile] dw_news slightly before 0830 EST (see in your time zone). Comment notifications may be delayed for up to an hour or two, due to the high volume of notifications generated by each news post. Please don't worry about missing notifications until at least 1030 EST.

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Jul. 13th, 2014 11:50 pm
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Our code push will begin in approximately 15 minutes. We'll let you know when it's complete!

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Jul. 13th, 2014 09:15 pm
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Ahahaha I totally forgot I have no internet at home for the next week.



shivaya namah ha

Jul. 13th, 2014 05:01 pm
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It's like I've almost got everything lined up perfectly - but none of it's quite there yet. Deep breaths, self. You know things are gonna have to unsettle a little bit more before you're through.

-housing. I gotta get out of where I'm at, this is not cool. I've been looking for a place up in northern Michigan, up home, and it's soooo frustrating because what I need is to not live around people, but that costs money. I'm emailing right now with a dude who has EXACTLY WHAT I (THINK) I WANT: a 2br house on a farm. he's got other people interested, and I pretty much sent a beg yesterday evening, and have not heard back yet, and I'M CLIMBING THE WALLS because I WANT IT and I want to have everything settled, but true talk I haven't seen the interior or ANYTHING. I JUST WANNA BE SETTLED. I JUST WANT TO BE ABLE TO LIVE SOMEWHERE SAFE FOR ME.

-work writing. Every summer, my company puts together a set of introductory essays on a special topic. Last year it was Letters & Diaries, the year before that Manifestos. This year? Stories of Daily Life in Totalitarian Regimes, which seems to mean Red China, the USSR, and Nazi Germany. Girls, I been writing a LOT about Nazi Germany, I'm here doing a workup on Primo Levi, gah. There's a reason why I chose not to specialize in this sort of thing - I don't like looking at it too close, it eats at me. I mean, in a way it's also a (scary) honor, because talk about a literature written in blood. But I would still kind of rather be working on Shakespeare.


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The universe is made up of stories, not atoms.
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Our lives begin to end the day we become silent about things that matter.
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